A dramatic take on life :3
5.3.25
PLEASEEE I'M SUFFERING and it's only the 5th day of March?!?!?
I stayed at home today and yesterday cz of Nausea and barely sleeping, while I went home early on monday (again) because of nausea
"Why r u sick?" Usually I would say that I don't know, but now I do and everytime I think about it I want to puke. But here's what heppened;
I was in german class, yea? Boring asf but I have to do something to get out of this school educated. And we had homework due, I obvi gave it in because why wouldn't I??? Since we had a double lesson, he did have the time to correct our work before we left and I got my result back. FX. I'll give some extra context
"What the fuck is FX" A grade lower than F. Let's say, there's maybe 10 questions on the homework, if you get a 1, a 2 or a 3, you'd get FX. Then theres F, E (yes that too), D, C, B and A
"What does this shi have to do with sickness" I've never really gotten a grade lower than C, and I only got it about 3 times my whole life. And my mom wouldn't be really chill with that, but still chill enough while I'm not sure about my dad. He'd just give me an angry 5 hour lecture telling me to study more while literally wasting my study time. Seeing I got a 2/10 / FX on the homework, I panicked and felt sick. I asked to go to the bathroom and stayed there until I realized class was ending (so like 7 mins after) and left to pack up my stuff. Oh and I was also considered one of the best students that my german teacher taught, and I'm terrified at the thought of not being good enough anymore. Especially this second half-term is really important to see if I'll go into the next year...
After we had lunch, and my grade isn't allowed to use phones and we have to put them in lockers, but nobody does. Many kids use them in the bathrooms, and while I never did, this time I took it out to ask my mom to come pick me up because I felt sick. And, I've already asked the secretary to call my mom because I felt sick about 5 times this year already, so I was worried they'd think I was faking and send me back to lunch or class. They didn't, thank fuck, but I was still worried.
I also feel like there isn't really an escape, since my parents have access to the website we use to check our grades, timetables, homework, absences, etc... and that damn FX is on there.
Also, to why I failed the homework was because me and the other two kids who do L2 German weren't aware of it until the day it was due, since I also wasn't there the day it was assigned. We all had the time to do it together, but one of us missed the explanation, the other doesn't really speak German and the other barely pays attention, we still tried our best.
The weird thing is, we all had the same answers but we got a different grade. I got FX, the girl who barely pays attention got F and the newer guy got E?
mood rn
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