A Dramatic Take On Life

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13.2.24

Welcome to the internet. This is the only place I find people that actually care about me but sadly live HOURS away. Today was seriously boring as fuck and scary. 

Today the second I woke up I didn't even have breakfast since it made me want to puke just looking at food and guess what?? We had to go to Lidl at that moment which is a grocery store. It took us YEARS to get out of  there since it's also a store that I HATE so damn much I would rather kiss the floor that's dirty /srs. I got myself some sour candies since they're actually good and a punch monster. I didn't see my dad this morning as he left for work at 7 am since it's a tuesday and me and my brother have a 1 week holiday. (It's 5:33 pm as im writing this and I think hes back, Oh shi. Srs tho, hes the last person I sometimes wanna see) 

I came back home and immedeately went to my room without even bothering to help my mum since I was so tired and she keeps screaming at me when I do something wrong. I can't write too many things here since this blog is probably gonna get found out sooner or later sadly since my parents r strict asf and I *need* to show them everything online (I never do) and that's how I learned to lie, fake laugh, fake cry, hide stuff, delete things in 10 seconds, how to secretly take their phone and perm delete every picture they have of my things.

 Like when they found out that I Sh, they told me to show them my arms while I had tears on my face as they were suddenly screaming at me since I kept saying no. Like who forces sum1 to show them the other person's scars?? It was mostly my dad that started yelling but then my mom started too. Ever since that night I have become better and better at hiding stuff from them. And no, I won't come out to them even tho i'm pretty sure they're gonna find out im a lesbian in a bit. Or there is a massive chance they already know. 

after that, everytime I used their phone to find mine with the 'find device' app from google, (since they keep taking it away from me, hiding it and 4getting where they put it) I quietly and quickly go into their gallery, delete the 94 photos they have of my diaries, secret notes and recordings of me, go into recycling bin and perm delete them. 

Wow, that was so corny and dramatic of me to say.

A Dramatic Take On Life

         A dramatic take                    on life :3

11.2.24

Okay so before you read this, just know that I may be SUPER high. And this is going to be a whole ass post on random things about my massive crush.

 I would recommend that u think of the song 'Forever' or 'Black Hair' both by Alex G. (or even listen to them, honestly). 

OKay so today at about 6:30pm I see my friend playing (or, my Crushhhh ♥) parkour which is a game my classmate leo, and probably boy-bestfriend told me about. So when I see my crush playing it (let's call her Ali since that's the name i'm gonna give my cat. No, I dont want kids, and no, her name doesn't start with T. It starts with Z) I obviously join her to say hi. For a second I hesitate wondering if this is even a good idea since if you know me irl im introverted as fuck, and socially awkward. I never really think people care more online, so thats why I made a blog. Apparently people online care about others more. 

Anyways, I do finally join her while putting on the most random ass songs like first I put 'Catch me if you can' by BABYMETAL which I think you can tell is a bit like a metal song. Then I end up putting 'Hollywood' by MARINA and then I find myself playing 'Ballad Of A Homeschooled Girl' by Olivia Rodrigo. I ended up putting Training Wheels after 'A.O.A.H.G' (the Olivia Rodrigo song) on repeat the whole time which actually made me cry just a little bit since it reminded me of almost every crush I've ever had and If i still like them or I forced myself to like them or if they even think about me.

As I'm writing this im still listening to Training Wheels and my brother is going around my room trying to destroy everything and annoy me by saying that Training Wheels and Carousel on repeat is pissing him off. 

I try to search for her for atleast 30 minutes before I give up and just go wherever I wanna and I find myself infront of her but she was afk sadly. I waited and waited for 8 minutes and she still wasn't moving. Tori, if you're going afk for this long u can atleast mayb leave the game?? Oh well, doesnt matter. 

I stay afk for atleast 20 minutes before I get kicked for being afk 4 too long even though I was thinking about all the lovely things me and Tori could do if she liked me back but It is conformed she's straight. She told us in a snap gc I added her in a few months ago, I think it was like may 2023 and we havent talked in the gc since september but last time we talked together was the 8th of this month about Carnival since we dont go to the same school anymore as she moved schools this year and is now 30 minutes away. I miss seeing her at school so much. 

The type of relationship I want is like a cute and cuddly one since im asexual and it just makes me so happy seeing all those wlw/mlm couples together taking cute pics together like the ones u see on pinterest (plz tell me you understand what im saying) 

I always want to be the younger one in the realtionship, like, the shorter one, k what I mean? But what happend? I am the younger one (by 10 moths and 14 days) but guess what? Whoever created me decided to make me tall as fuck. So now i'm 11-14 yrs old and almost 170cm fucking tall. So like 30cm taller than her. So im like a whole head taller than my classmates so that makes me the tallest one in my maths, english, science, German and pe class. 

OKay this might not be very healthy since I think about  her every day, but I've had a crush on Tori since like 5th grade. So its been YEARS. 

Annnnnd now my brother just asked me to put 'Angel Of Darkness' and I have never put on a song quicker in my whole life since he's slowly becoming mini-me and I'm not doing anything which makes me feel like a proud mom, even tho, as I said before I dont want kids. 

The thing I love most about her has to be her energy irl. Like we could be talking about the most depressing shit going on in my life and she can always make it better by even texting me a SINGLE WORD. 

What if my classmates find my blog and my story blog?? I'd be fucked. (my other blog is Deviltown story) and oh my god for some reason she is like, the best, cutest and most adorable person I have met in my life. Her voice is like the girls with a cute annoying voice which slightly annoys me but I still love her.. 

In the end, yes, I'm still not over my first lesbian crush. bye :3 

Today was boring as fuck. 

(Edited: 23.5.24, 20:53)

A Dramatic Take On Life

 A dramatic take on life :3

10.2.24

10:17

HIIII I js came back from hell since I got in trouble and wasnt able to use my phone, pc or tv. 

I want to shoot myself so badly. But that not the reason ( I always wanna) 

On thursday (2 days ago) the school was so nice they let us put on fits for carnival so wednesday night was stressful since I had to go search for the perfect clothes since I was going to be Janis Ian from Mean Girls. My other friends, Bea, was going to be Karen (Bea does NOT have blonde hair, so thats y she later changed into a gymnast since she is one), Gabby was going to be Regina (and OMG she looked so good, and also Bea did!!) Lea was Cady (plz tell me if thats not how u spell her name) and Sofi the other plastic. I forgot her name but i think it started with G or something. It takes me a long time to remember the names of characters in a movie now.

The SECOND i stepped out of the car to get into school on thursday, I got a bunch of weird stares by some people but I didn't really give a fuck since they were these nike guys that we all hate and some 'preppies' wearing those preppy nirvana sweaters. In my opinion, they are so weird I dont think its socially acceptable. God, who will tell them they're a BAND and not a BRAND???? For fucks sake.  Anyways, I had smokey eyes obviously and I actually really looked like Janis and a real emo, straight (I'm not) from 2004. 

The day was too long but lemme just say we had a whole ass party in the classroom since the first 2 hrs there was no teacher and we all got called into the principals office >.<

As I'm finished writing this, it's 11th Feb 2024, 00:54 my eyes hurt so fucking badly and im 97% sure im hihgh.

 BAIIII :3

A Dramatic Take On Life

A dramatic take on life :3

4.2.24, sunday 

Skl's cancelled tmrw idk why but I have no idea what to do and being at home is bascially being in hell until i turn 18. Can't wait until i get out.

Or maybe ill be dead before i even turn 17? Who knows? 

I just had a small argument with one of my boy classmates and it was actaully pretty funny cuz it looked like he had no idea on how to argue and just kept saying slurs. I tried playing mm2 on roblox with my brother in a pub server since we always play in my priv serv but he rage quit since he's really, really, really dramatic. I dont blame him tho since i guess he always watches me play mm2 and always sees me rage and all dat. as i'm writing this i'm listening to 'catch me if you can' by Babymetal since it's one of my fav songs and im dressed up writh at least 15 bracelets on each arm, a pink striped shirt, purple and black striped socks that reach until my knees and a leoparded skirt with pink stars on them. 

 5.2.24, monday

it's 11:04 rn so i'm technically not allowed for another hour cz my mom made this stupid rule that we can't use any devices until 12 pm that we have been doing for YEARS and its getting annoying as fuck. and if you're wondering y im writing its cuz she's outside talking w the neighbours a bit. 

Now i'm listening to 'purge the poison' by marina and my little brother, Emmanuel is downstairs screaming while playing a spongebob game on roblox with his friend daks. I didn't have the enrgy to change into my pyjamas yesterday night so i'm wearing the same clothes as yesterday. Also, just in case i die i will with these clothes. Hey! atleast they're nice.  

I just came back from Cora, the store where I usually go to buy literally anything, but its not like a drugstore.

 I went into the electronics section and I found my irl bsf's mom. She also saw me and told me my bsf was sumwhere w her sister and I swear to god I have never ran so quickly in my life just to find where she is cuz the store is MASSIVE. When I found her, her sister left and we went to play around with the games we could try, secretly tried on childish headbands and in the meanwhile people were looking a us like we escaped a mental asylum. I can't blame them tho cz I was wearing black eyeshadow all around my eyes a little like Johnnie Guilbert.

She left after an hour or so, so i went immedeately to the energy drinks section cz I NEEDED one asap. 

Then,  there was this man that looked like he was about 56, taking pics of me while i was in the energy drinks section on call with my friend group. He took a picture and i ran away, leaving the call just by saying "fuck it" and about  1 hour later I went home, shaking and now I sent them a 10-minute-long voice msg saying what happend.

After i sent the msg to them my brother came in my room, and I asked him to leave the room multiple times, before I finaly lost it and threw a pillow at him. He went downstairs and came back with my dad's old baseball bat made of wood and pretended to hit me, but after a while I accidentally (seriously, i didn't do it on purpose) made the bat hit his head and that's when he finally lost it. he hit me in the head, on the leg and ran off

It still hurts A LOT, although i wish he hit me in the head harder so I would start crying more, people would actually care about me for once and i would've died. I wish I did.

Andd yea idk what 2 say.. baii >:33

A Dramatic Take on Life :3

         A dramatic take on life :3

NOTE ON 8.3.25: I MADE A NEW INTRO SO MAYB DON'T READ THIS 1

My name is Andrea, I will die one day, soon, maybe. 

I hate most things, like school since that's the thing that literally DESTROYED my mental stability. Seriously.

 Im gonna write about my day and all of the drama going on in my life on here since im always so bored and none of my friends rlly care ab what I do soooo yea

Here's a little ab me: 

♡ I go by They/Them/It's, I'm Lesbian, nonbinary and ace ♡

♡ Im swiss and Italian ♡

♡ I can speak English, Italian nd little German ♡

♡ My fav artists are Ke$ha, Melanie Martinez, Babymetal, Marina, Siouxxie Sixxsta, Lady Gaga and Rebzyyx ♡

♡ I love writing stories, however, I don't post them on the internet but I may put some here on my blogs. They're mostly short, since the text is normally put at 9,5. my longest story, 'You never even told me why', is 53 pages and my second longest, 'girls' is 28 pages but when my pc got hacked, it got deleted and i cant open it now but ill try to sumhw get it back ♡

♡ My fav game is Roblox ♡

♡  My fav apps are Pinterest, Roblox, Tiktok, Soundcloud and Spacehey (I got kicked from Myspace) ♡

♡ I love Scene/Emo/McBling styles  (And i say 'sorry' way too many times) ♡

I also have other socials ofc:

My tiktok >.<

Soundcloud <3

SpaceHey -.-

Roblox xp 

Pinter3st

Uh, I dont know what to say