What the fuck just happened #2

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2.3.25 

So what the fuck just happened but it's pt.2 on the SAME DAY

My last post was made yesterday morning, so I still had the whole day to get through. And I almost killed myself in the middle, literally. I was working on h4nging myself but I had more things to do

Everything is normal, my parents screaming pretty much stopped ig but then m brother was gonna go to his friend's house, as mentioned last time. So I'll tell about how it went on the drive there.

So we live like 7 minutes car drive from the town's swimming pool (only for schools and stuff, not public) and next to it was a road we were driving on to get to said friend's house. While we were just a few meters from the traffic lights and other roads left and right. Two cars drive infront of us too quickly, which is dangerous but nothing happened. After that, a car pulls up next to us and the guy in there stars doing hand jestures that expressed him  being confused on something. My mom was replying with the Italian 🤌 (idk what its called) since she didnt know what he was talking ab. 

*WHAT HAPPENS NEXT IS SHOCKING* (+and traumatic, extra points!)

We don't know why, but because everyone was waiting for the green light and everyone was stopped, he exited his car and came up to ours quickly and angrily, and I mean he was ANGRY. 

I'll include a picture of inside a car from some stock image site to explain what happend. 

There it is. So M, is my mom driving, B and arrow is where my brother was and me is me. 

What happened was that the car was on my side, and I mentioed that he stood up and walked to us ANGRY. I don't know why, but he proceeds to OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR OF THE CAR and harass us... Vocally? But he also hit me, and it hurt bad. He was telling off my brother about something, and even though he was next to me, he was pointing at my brother and insulting us for some reason. He was obviously on alcohol and possiply durgs, his words didn't make any sense (and he was speaking French which we all know pretty much but we couldn't make out what he was saying) and his pupils were really big, and it was bright as fuck outside, only about 3:30pm. 

He just stayed there doing that for about 10 minutes while I was, and this may look stupid, just like this the whole time 

 Except I wasn't holding my glasses but my phone and my coat. And, my eyes were a little less shocked and my mouth was normal. But yea, still shocked as fuck and scared. He hit me, there was fucking spit going to the floor when he said something very agressively and it was all shit. A minute before he stopped I started sobbing and I just did so for almost an hour. We drove off, and tried to remeber as many details of his car and stuff as possible, to report to the police. We arrived at my bro's friend's house after like 3 minutes and my mom quickly explained why we were late as I was in the car, still sobbing as I took my phone to call my best friend. 

I asked her in the morning if I could call her any time of day and she said she couldn't, but I forgot about that there. I just waited for her to pick up, 

"Can I call? Or are you busy?" was the first thing I said, my voice a bit weird. She said yes, and while still crying I explained what happend (ft. a shit ton of stuttering) and we just kept calling for 30 minutes after, instead talking about the drama at school to forget about it.

I came home and went straight to my room, still talking with her and laying in my bed, a bit more relaxed. Then all of a sudden, I hear this yell coming from a certain someone who was screaming eariler today too; my dad.

He was telling me to get dressed and get in the car. "I just left it 5 minutes age, what the fuck?" I thought, and he starts asking questions about where it happend, how and everything.

Long story short, we went around our whole city's parking lots and didn't find anything, since we were going to go look for him. We didn't find him, and I kept begging my dad to go to the police instead of looking for him in useless places. 

We did end up going to the police and hour later, and guess the fuck what?
Because there's no proof that I got physically hurt, (since it didn't bruise or some shit, I wasn't listening anymore) and verbal harassment can't be punished unless it's serious threats.

I HATE THIS FUCKASS COUNTRY, GET ME OUT OF HERE

Oh, and here's some bonuses!!!

 - I looked inside his car when he was leaving back, his wife was in there. Wanna know how she looked like? Imagine Ash Trevino if she lost like 10kg.

 

- He claimed to have a daughter around my brother's age in the car. How would he like to insult and scream at his own daughter? Oh wait, nevermind. There wouldn't be much of a difference since he doesnt give a single shit. That Ash wannabe hoe didn't even bother reacting to what she was seeing, just all there calm and whatever. 

 - His fingerprints were on the car for a good amount of time, until my mom disinfected the whole door he touched a few hours ago. But the police said we couldn't identify by that. I'm not even old enough to be an officer, and I know that guy's ass was lying. 

 - As if my day couldn't get worse, when we were going back to the parking lot to pay for the space and leave, my ex-bestfriend of two years ago who turned out to be a conniving bitch who wants nothing but attention. And worse enough, our cars were parked NEXT TO EACHOTHER (since we both had no idea how they looked like, we couldn't even avoid it)

Now for my final wishes; To not speak to another man above the age of 15 until I'm old enough to forget about all this, and possibly not go outside anymore.

Literally traumatizing.

Oki baiii!!! ^^

What the fuck just happened

 A dramatic take on life :3

1.3.25 

So what the fuck just happend

Uhhh idk tw: parents?? 

I was just writing and texting my best friend, A, who's in another school if we could call, while my parents were on the other side of the room discussing my brother's communion and who to invite, where, when and I also think they were wondering where to go this summer since we always go to my grandma's house and my grandparents. Then my mom started saying about how when we're at my dad's parent's house, he always goes to random places and leaves us alone with nothing to do, since usually we go to the beach all together .

I don't know how exactly it got there, but then it became a mess of them screaming as loud as they could to eachother across the table, before my dad started bashing whatever he had in his hands on the table (since he was sitting down) before standing up and I don't know...  Then my mom turned around to her back and her voice started to sound like she was gonna cry and ran upstairs and then I was just shocked, because they did disagree sometimes, naturally, but it never got to this point as far as I can remember.

 And although I was acting like I was minding my business and not listening to the conversation, I was and I froze completely when that all started. My dad followed her upstairs and I didn't know what he was about to do because you never know, but I couldn't for 5 minutes. Then when I did stand up, I fell to my knees again because I physically felt like I couldn't, but that's been like that since Wednesday so yeah, but then I also started crying (?) which is weird because I'm not the type of person to cry easily. Then when I finally managed to stand up, I went upstairs and my mom was at the top of the stairs, and my dad like 2 meters infront of her. Just to make sure nothing was gonna happen.

Then my brother came out of our room, which is next to the top of the stairs and was like "wtf just happened" but went downstairs before he got his question answered. I don't want him to see all this, he just turned 10, after all. And he's gonna go to his friend's house today so I don't want him to stop being happy because of what just happened.

I'm back in the living room writing this, I don't know where my dad is, my brother's in the basement for wtv reason and my mom's upstairs still. There hasn't been a word spoken for about 20 minutes now and my hands are shaking just typing this, but I still want to. So are my legs, which my laptop is on, so excuse me if there's any typos.

Oh never mind wtf they're talking. My dad is mad asf, idk how to say it in english but in Italian it's "incazzato" and my mom is laughing saying 

"stop it now, I'm tired." I guess it's better now, but I'm still scared. They disagree on something everyday, and what if it gets to this point over and over? 

This all, and more that I didn't write ab, happened in the span of like 20 mins??

 (made by me ^.^)

Lowk hate my class it's not even funny anymore

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27.2.25 (posted on 1.3.25)

Yea, please get me out of here asap. Everyone is kinda shit in their own way, and I just can't take it anymore. The only two people I can stand in here are my two friends in other classes. For example, let me tell you about what happened today; 

First, my English teacher wasn't there. And I don't like her at all and I had homework I didn't finish so I was obviously happy asf! But during étude (45 mins study time after/before lunch depending on ur class) where my English teacher was also supposed 2 look after but there was a sub, yea?  since nobody had work to do since we all finished it, we watched the news quickly and everyone was being loud so the sub turned it off and bla bla bla... 

Then one of my classmates that I used to sorta stand wrote down on a peice of paper "Women should belong in the kitchen and..." and idk what he wrote after that. Then, one of the guys who we'll call P snatched the paper and gave it to the girls who were all sitting together and showed it to them.

My friend sent in a gc the pic of the paper but b4 she deleted it I copied it and it was then saved to my notes so here it is;

text; "Petition 

"women should be in the kitchen cooking, cleaning the house and taking care of the kids" What the fuck

 Everyone started yelling for the sub to come and read what was written on the paper and then the guy got a lecture and the sub tried her hardest to make him feel guilty. It worked.

(Note on 1.3.25) 

It all kinda went to shit after that, but I'm not feeling to well rn to finish writing it. I'll try to when I feel better, I'll start another post.

Shitpost #1 - Pictures from the internet

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17.2.25 (posted 21.2.25)

From the title, you already know what this is about, so yeah, here they are;

 

                                                    

 

Updated Intro!

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16.2.25

My name is Viatore, but you can call me Vi!   

This is gonna be my 2nd introduction, a year after my 1st one!

 Im gonna write about my day whenever I have the motivation/remember to. Or sometimes about how I feel, or random shitposts

Here's a little ab me:

 ♡ I either post a lot everyday or just disappear for a year until I remember ♡

 ♡ I go by He/Him/His, I'm trans, omnisexual but still questioning my sexuality (might b gay?) and I sometimes use neopronouns in my head! ♡

♡ Im swiss, Italian and got the Luxembourgish nationality last year! ♡

♡ I can speak Italian, German, Luxembourgish, English, French and Swedish! I can also understand Spanish, Portoguese + some Dutch ♡

♡ My fav artists are Omar Rudberg, Babymetal, Millionaires, Marina and many different vocaloid producers! ♡

♡ I love writing stories, however, I don't post them on the internet but I may put some here on my blogs. my longest story, which does't actually have a name yet, is 112 pages long. Actually, it's not really a story... It's fanfiction that I gave up writing on in May last year. 

But I also really love dancing and singing, but I can't participate in courses rn since I'm really tired. ♡

♡ My fav games are Roblox, Project Sekai, Needy Streamer Overload, Doki Doki Literature club, SpeakForYou and Class Of '09 games (not the flipside tho)  ♡

♡  My fav apps are Tiktok, Soundcloud, Block Blast, Pinterest, Netflix and Spacehey (I got kicked from Myspace) ♡

♡ I love Scene/Emo/McBling/Gyaru styles  (And i say 'sorry' way too many times) ♡

I also have other socials ofc: (these r the ones I remember)

My tiktok >.<

Soundcloud <3

SpaceHey -.-

Roblox xp 

Pinter3st

Twitter!!

Uh, I dont know what else to say  (again)

IM SEEING MY FAV ARTIST IN THREE DAYS?!??!?!!!!! HOLY FUCK!

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15.2.25 

SEEING MY FAV ARTIST IN MILAN AFTER 2 YEARS!!!! HOLY FUCK!

I'll be in Milan on the 18th to see Omar, and I'm so fucking excited! I'll be driving there for 8 hours, which is great because I love long car rides. And because I'm going to Milan for the first time in my whole LIFE!! And i'll also see him in Cologne on the 24th, but I'll talk ab Milan now.

"Why are you driving all the way there, you could go to Cologne only since it's the closest" My family were already planning to go to Italy, and I found out he's gonna preform there so I'm like,

"damn, I really wanna go, I'd also be able to meet other fans that I can speak in my native language with! That's so cool!" People act as if it's some super-shocking thing that I've never been to any of the major cities in Italy like Milan, Rome, Florence, etc... and that the only one I've been to is Pescara because I'm from there.  

I'm listening to Pull Up as I'm writing this, I love this song, especially when it's like near the end of the song and you hear more singing under the actual song. I have no idea how to describe it, but it so fun listening to it. It's so underrated too. I mean, a ton of his songs are. But that'll change.  

But I'm also kinda STRESSED because I'm leaving on Monday and I've *barely* packed. No, I haven't packed at all, yet even have an outfit.

Today I was also supposed to hang out with my bestfriend and another friend but my bsf said to postpone it to next week so we have more time. Guess what? I'll be in Cologne next week, so no ❤️ And my other friend was already at the mall when my bsf decided next week, so he was kinda pissed, and I was sad. Why? My bsf moved schools and because her school and home is in the city, 20 minutes away, we barely get to see eachother. Plus, her parents are strict asf and I don't know if they like me 100% at this point. 

(Writing this after the rant you're about to read; This is just me yapping about my brother, you can skip if you want. I'll put the text in a diff color so you know when I stop ranting)

My mom could tell I was sad, so she brought me to get some Ice cream hoping it'd make me feel better, but ofcourse my brother had to try to make everything about him again. Like, on the bus, we were standing up holding ourselves using the like, polls? I dunno what they're called, but then he started swinging around them and not staying in place, almost bumping into multiple people and overall being very loud and rude when answering my mom. Here's something he's actually said; 

"Just because you're 50 and don't know how to have fun doesn't mean that I'm not allowed!" Like fuck you, that's your MOTHER. She calmly kept trying to tell him to stay in one place, that it's disrespectful. Because you obviously can't go swinging yourself around a poll on a bus. But nobody ever seems to understand my pov when explaining this. Also when we arrived there, he just lay on the floor with no explanation in the middle of an empty, flat place right next to the mall. It's dirty on there, why?!?!? 

Then, we were in the mall. We had just entered to take ice cream, buy some things we needed and leave. No, he decided he wanted to go visit every fucking store. I just waited outside, even if it was a store I liked, like Claire's because I cannot stand being in the same room as him. He then leaves Claire's, and when I'm distracted on my phone at one point, he just takes the lollipop I had in my mouth and throws it in the trash can close to where I was sitting. Mamma just told me to stop being so dirstracted and they moved on. The fuck did I do to him?

 We did get Ice-cream, and when we sat down he sat in another place then where me and my mom were sitting and tried to say that we did something wrong or some shit, causing another scene. We then went to Mediamarkt, because free will exists. I was looking at the vinyls while my brother kept trying to convince mamma to buy an ender-dragon plushie that was 35 EURO!  But of course, because he's little and 'only' 10 years old and he's been 'so good' so she bought it. 

Something about him annoys me so much. And there will be no "oh but he's only 10 years old!" Because I don't really care, he insane. Though sometimes even if he says Mean stuff to me, I don't really care anymore because I'm so used to it. 

"You're an ugly fat bitch" I'm pretty underweight but okay if you say so.

Like, my parents know about the fact that I've been at my lowest since like December 2023, and they brought me to 1 therapy session in January 2024. The guy said I'm completely fine and that it was just a 'shock'. Yeah, and you don't think about the fact that I might've lied about the amount of times I've harmed myself? Obviously I'm not gonna trust some random stranger about these things. Then I got told that he wasn't a good therapist and that I need to see a better one. 

I never got to see a new one, thank fuck. 

Okay but IM SO EXCITED (there's a link because it's a reference so y not) FOR THE CONCERT(S)!!! I'm gonna go to both with my mom because I'm not old enough to be in big cities all alone at like 9pm :cry: 

Toucing grass but I can't

 

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10.2.25 (posted on 15.2.25)

For once in my life i finally wanted to go touch grass but now I can't.

Fuck, that was phrased horribly, lemme try again.

So basically, I'm almost never allowed to go outside alone even if it's to the grocery store 1 minute walk from my house. And today is my 1st day on holiday, and I dunno why but I have this urge to go outside to like the mall or something, so I was wondering if any of my friends were availible to like hang out, since most people in the groupchat live close and basically everyone I know always goes there. I'm never surprised when I see someone I know. Like, last time I went there was last month, and I saw 5 of my classmates, 1 ex-classmate, 2 of my teachers and 6 people from other classes in my school. 

I asked if anyone was free in the school groupchats we have, containing about 40 members and guess what? Apparently, two people replied, saying they had work to do *today*, when they never have any, and others just viewed my message saying nothing. One girl asked me at what time we could meet up so I replied "like 14:30 or 3pm" and then she completely ghosted me afterwards. 

But now guess what? We have a groupchat where all the admins give updates and news about gc stuff and I just found out half of them are chilling at a small, empty football field in the city next to mine (about 5 minutes with a bus from here to there) and nobody told me. They went to get snacks and drinks, talked about random shit, played games together on their phones, normal teenager stuff... (Apart from drugs and alc0h0l). 

And I won't even be able to go anywhere I actually want to go to tomorrow because I need to attend my brother's fuckass doctor appointment that has nothing to do with me at like 11am. I asked if I could just stay home, but all I got was a stern no, although I don't understand because I don't really have anything to do with my brother. Also because I noticed that they tell my family about my brother, but they also 'discreetly' observe us attentively and monitor our movements, expressions and everything in their heads, which makes me uncomfortable, knowing my every move is being closely looked at

But anyways, yeah, I'm gonna have to deal with it sadly.